Progress

talked to some random hinge girl, bad use of time lmao. but good data on the kind of person i dont like lmao.

Feel alright. I have some energy, but a small dip in motivation / alertrness. drinking caffeine rn lol

the big bed was amazing

kept thinking about kristel :")

played viola 10-11:30, then got hyperfixated and played more until 12:30. and instagram stories lol. I also want to release my cats soon, hopefully today, since they want to explore my house. and its stressful knowing they are still inside there.

honestly felt incredible, very good creative day today! viola makes me creative and open, and it also got me hyperfixated on it from 10:30 - 2am.

started out kinda tired . but became awake and very prodcutive. dreamed about cleaners/movers/listings..

goodbye kristal for good lmao, no more putting her into here. let there be grief, but no more updates here because i am taking . no more what if sceneiors because i already played out those tapes

really weird sleep about kristal and boundaries and stuff. Probably will take space lol. was also anxious about busines and resolved

AMAZING

FML talked to nadya and made an insta story. need to set limits. I think I crave feeling validated at night.

hung out with the party girl rip. omg shes so hot

good. book. then slept in bathroom

slept in my bathroom!! read before sleep

emotinoally triggering convo about not feeling seen and feeling judged

cats woke me up at night, meowing and stuff also i was woken up by my own anxiety. I sent a feedback text and then went to bed, and it triggered me :") I regulated when i woke up but it took awhile. Needed to remind myself what was good/beautiful about the relationship.

Cats kept attacking me and meowing at night

I feel alright! I need to get 10 sign ups now

Ketamine with girl and couch poop

i did wake up briefly at 6am and got H***** but thought about some boring shit and fell back asleep. No hut

Launched self serve <3

got a shit tone of work done, even though i spent the mroning sleeping on the plane felt relaxed, no pressure

texting girls before bed :") i need to set boundaries

got some stuff done

Slept early, just read book. Feel a bit better, still a little sick, but better

amazing exceptt didnt sleep well

hung out with sabrina

got some nice work in, light work, just did what i could. nothing super hard, but just was consistent at least

still tired but relaxed

talked with kai on facetime fuck no calls after 12

feel so sore and tired ahhh. Feel so freaking drained from social.

Did the closeout, but sayed up super fucking late because of social/texting/hua/amy/one bug FML!!!

POOPPP had to release code

headache lol and felt a lot of anxiety whjiel sleeping. about companies getting mad at me from ogtool.

no devices. just read book no coding or computer. slept really well omg., really deep sleep

coding

coding got in the way

sprained my ankle last night but feel better today mentally

kept thinking about abg and initiation weirdly

freedom, need to keep that on

not feeling good this morning lets see how the day goes Issue Paola Issue : Lainey (?)

lower back hurt. also im getting chonkier lol i think from the meal plan

Anxiety and had onboarding's and stupid team stuff

i feel safe . notes: i was tryna post on instagram after dark lol (?) contacting carolina etc. I just needed to feel safe and let it go.

I feel a little dead this morning from thinking about breakups. I spent way too long on instagram and sending stuff to carolina lmao i turned on freedom and locked it now. just expeirencing too much anxiety at night also spend too long on hinge low key

Why. Coding grind and worried about hercules

Slept in Lainey's bed felt amazing didn't wanna wake.. such deep sleep. I did awake and feel 10/10. Coffee vyase today

Airport no coffee Vyvanse

i started being urgent at 9:45 pm listened to audiobok fell alleep in my tent, no eyemask

get in BED by 10 lol

ughh need more sleep urgency, start at 10pm bro

i think i just didnt have bedtime urgency really

Tired when woke up at 7:30! but. FEEL GOOD. Feel ahead. Feel grateful

talked to friends beforehand.. relational anxiety

audiobook i think, slept okay

on hinge updating my stuff so i dont attract people just into my looks ;/ I want one about github lol

posted on instagram reel+story, wanted to highlight some wins because i was proud of them

Talked to chatgpt right before....... overthikning relationship stuff and replaying events and narratives

caffeine + vyvanse. slept okay, woke up twice. relational anxiety not in control. Solved. Figured out WHY it was happening, and then regained my control

some caffeine, vyvanse, but talked to Amy and got a lot of energy, couldnt release it, kept thinking about taylor :(

only a tiny caffine , no vyvanse. no shower

vyvanse and caffine. still slept well but wasnt tired

Bendidril and hot water ftw. vyvanse and caffine. still slept well <3

Took benedrill and did the hot water thing, felt soooo good after. And slept like a baby!

kept tossing and turning from itchines from the jelly fish

slept soooooo well

Slept so well. Had to wake up for ferry. Got another 2 hour nap in there let's goo.

Sleepy and good. No caffeine or Vyvanse

Lainey Kept tossing n turning, couldn't sleep, had Vyvanse and caffeine that day. And the open. Kinda cold too

anxious about the open lol

Idk packing. Eating. Gym

Sad.... audiobook...... too long :( self care :'( posting a story not worth

still woke up once with a little bit of cortisol just told myself go to bed after workout, was hungry lol i could sleep easily

still woke up once with a little bit of cortisol i had a tiiiny bit of caffeine today for crossfit and vyvanse and had relaxing massage social media usage ramp at night tho with story

OMG YESS i just had no cafeeine slept so

woke up a few times in the night high cortisol vibe not having caffeine or meds today :o yolo!